Why is it that when things are hard, I put my coat of grief on?
Is it because it is comfortable to me knowing that I am
NOT OK and wearing this coat confirms it? Is it because I believe that this coat is deserved, the feeling of sadness, grief are normal?
When did I pick up this stupid coat of grief? Do I go to my coat of grief for safety? Do I wrap this coat about me to hide my emotions when I cannot control them,
or when I feel exposed and vulnerable? Do I feel others cannot hurt me while I am in my coat of grief,
as it is my protection?
You never gave me this coat Jesus. It is not your way to deal with pain or grief. When I am in this coat I believe that grief is ‘safer’ than joy.
I believe that all things will be hard, so I cannot be disappointed.
My coat of grief - much like a mini castle I have made to protect my heart. Have I ever let you look inside this coat of grief Jesus?
To hand the coat of grief over to you Jesus. To choose to wear your garment of praise.
How can I be vulnerable, real and experience life,
joy and pain wearing YOUR Garment of Praise?
How can I life live with its ups and downs choosing to believe that you are loving, and good?
How can I trust in your love, your protection God and not rely on my own?
Help me Lord!
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