I have struggled to rest most of my life.
Restlessness it bubbles up from my fear of rejection , my fear of failure, my fear of not making the ‘grade’, a confirmation that I am NOT OK, not acceptable.
Control is the only thing that has worked to subdue this restlessness.
But control is futile and unhelpful – it does not bring me any stability as I thought it did. Only stress and the requirement for more control which dominates my life.
Painful revelations: I cannot control you Jesus I cannot control others I cannot control life’s situations I cannot control what others think of me I cannot control whether others like or accept me.
Trusting and resting in you Jesus. This is where I will find my peace.
Letting go of control, entrusting my fears into your care.
Choosing to believe you and what you say about me, rather than what screams from within.
Jesus, you love it when we rest. Rest is the stepping stone to your presence, your insight. A place of peace in your arms, close to your heart.
Rest comes when we know we are loved, we are safe and fear is absent.
If we are still restless in your presence Jesus, reveal the lies we believe about you that hold us back from your love, safety and peace.
‘Be still and know that I am God..’
Psalm 46:10
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